The Rafiki Stick...

For those of you that don't know me, this blog might be a little weird but if you get to know me it will all make sense.
I was raised in the Christian Church, and up to a few weeks ago always thought I knew what that meant in terms of my identity. I was wrong. You see faith is a great thing, it is Alive. It cannot be defined in terms of what is human, because it is above humanity. Well anyways, to make a long story short, i made a ton of mistakes that made me realize that I have strayed way too far away from the One who created me. As me and my friends would so often refer to it, God has used the Rafiki stick to smack some sense into me. A lot has changed in a few short months and i am growing up so fast, so fast that it is hard to know where i am going. But i know that one thing is for sure, and that is My Jesus.
You see i dont think even up to this very moment i have ever held that statement as dear and sincere as it ought to have been. I always knew the words to say, but never experienced them or the lack of them in my life. That came and I have been blind to it for a long time but i see that i was thirsting for a love only the Creator and Author of Love could provide. Knowing this i am looking into the future, which i normally would be wincing into the future, and hoping that I can die to myself and live as He intended from the moment I was in my mother's womb.
That said, I will need all the prayer i can get! Its going to be a journey one that won't end until the day I die, but i look forward to everything God has in store for me! and that is why i am starting this blog so that everyone might know that i am saved through grace and be a living example to the love that changes and transforms lives!
In Christ,
Jillian

"12Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." Phillipians 4:13